I don’t like me

I hate looking at the curve on my stomach that’s shaped like a sideways 3

so you’ll never see me in a crop top without constantly pulling it down

I hate the way my chin doubles up when i look down

so you’ll never see me asking to take a photograph with you

I hate the way my thighs touch

so you’ll never see me in leggings without an oversized shirt on

I hate the way my hips dip twice

and you’ll never see me wear a tight fitting shirt

I hate how I always seem to have acne somewhere on my face

so you’ll never see me without makeup

I hate the way my hair thins right at the top

so you’ll never see it brushed back

I hate the way I have red dots lining my chest and back

so you’ll never see me wearing a tank top

I hate how thick my arms look from the side

so you’ll rarely see me wearing a shirt with short sleeves

you can tell me all these things are natural and normal

you can tell me I’m beautiful

but until the number on the scale reads something below 120

and i don’t have acne that covers my face

I’ll never believe you