Seconds

I remember the second it happened

The moment I realized what was about to occur

Do you know what that’s like?

To look into the eyes of someone who is about to ruin years of laughter and innocence

I remember the second it happened

With his hands on my hips and my eyes closed tightly

Do you know what that’s like?

For someone to take control of you and put their hands on your body as if they own it?

I remember the second it happened

I begged for him to stop and slow down, he smiled as he pushed into me harder

Do you know what that’s like?

To be manipulated into trusting something with something as simple as a drink?

I remember the second it happened

As I stumbled into a strangers bathroom, only wearing a bra falling onto the cold tile

Do you know what that’s like?

To physically be incapable to hold a phone to call your mother and beg for help?

I remember the second it happened

I grabbed the sink to support me up, just to look down and see my blood on the floor

Do you know what that’s like?

To be hurt so bad, and still be confused on what’s happening?

I remember the second it happened

When he whispered in my ear that it will be okay

I remember the second my scariest secret began